||[Dec. 29th, 2003|11:33 pm]
Feeling Sorry For Myself
So I haven't really done a lot in the last however many days it has been since I wrote last... I'm lonely all of the time and have started to hate myself because I suck at life so very much... I want a somebody. I want to be able to sleep at night... I don't want to live like a zombie. I want someone to take me home and love me...
Days really aren't as bad as nights, but I find myself wanting to do something drastic, like crack to get him out of my system. I don't want to call him, but I know that I really do. I can't even stop thinking about him. He said that I can't make him love me. I wish that I could. I wish that I could make ME love me...